i just feel so empty. so... so different. so lacking. as i watch all these people, all these happy people.. watching them holding hands, and sneaking kisses, and staring with eyes full of passion.. and i just think why can't i feel that?. there's always this longing for emotion, but i can never find it. i can't love. i can't be happy. i can't feel. i just don't know how, anymore...

or did i ever know in the beginning?